Saturday, May 07, 2005

Checking

life's has been on a up recently,sovled soem of the problems which has been frustrating me for a few months and accomplished some of my wishes.been more active socially recently.ok,i manage to get the stuff i wished for,the 60 gb ipod photo was the one which i had been waiting for and finally got it...only managed to fill up 10 gb with all my current songs though.been to 2 concert,underoath and New found glory..managed to get a t shirt signed by underoath and talk to vocalist for a minute,during the new found glory concert i bought a cd autographed by all the members of the band,got a guitar pick thrown by the bassist and i ripped one of the concerts posters..haha...pretty cool...bit still school is pretty sucky for me,being freaking lazy as usual...still have many projects to be done...

Thursday, March 31, 2005

LA

visited LA for my spring break hols..went to Universal Studio,Beverley Hills and Disneyland...pretty cool trip...finally went to Disneyland after a decade of wanting to go there...so its cool..my house have been pretty crowded and a bit lively these few days,held some small drinking gatherings...

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

FUck tHiS sHIT, FAIrNeSs?

still feeling angrier then ever...so FucK this mutha fucking piece of shit....recent events doesn't really help things...and choice of reading material too...i am thinking is there ever such a thing call "fairness" ?wad the hell is that?when we are born,its the start of unfairness...some are born into richer family while some poorer while some totally poor,some are gifted wif better intellectual abilities and some lack of it...some are beautiful some r ugly...the list goes on..the thing is that we don't have a choice of how we are born but the gud news is that we can control some part of our lives...now do we ask to be born into this world?so if we didn't ask for it and don't want to be why are we brought into this world...and now what the fuck are we doing?life is pretty repeatious...go school or work then hang put wif fren den eat,sleep...so what is all this shit for ??you do everything to achieve success then after reaching it,u aim for another...and when all those shit is done u grow old and u grow sick and then die...this is pure nonsense...and what do u get afer u die?is ther an afterlife?heaven or hell or limbo?or do we juz fade away ?now ppl say to be honest and do things the "right moral way" but can u achieve success thru real pure honesty?i think not...so the idea is to sin and cheat ur way up to success then say i am sorry and i wanna repent then thats when i go be a christian then my sins will be erased right?if thats how it works then i am set on road to success...if all christians go to heaven,i prefer to stay out of there coz u'll meet bastards of all sorts who had done atrocious stuffs....corporate conglemerates,politicians,priests who are perverts,murderers,rapist and many crimminals who change religion..are they all going to heaven?all this are juz my chain of thoughts,nothing to be taken seriously...just find that idea of all christian going to heaven ridiculous...then it will be the same as earth...what a no brainer...

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Chinese New Year 2005

its juz another day..chinese new year eve is juz another fucked up day for me where i muz go to school...so fucked up....so juz wanna say having a fucking happy chinese new year...i'm pissed coz this is will be the suckiest chinese new year ever for me.....no ang pao and no chinese new year goodies...no family with me...totally one hell of a mutha fucking day for me and to think that my family are celebrating it so nicely in indonesia doesn't comfort me at all...damn fucked...damn the american mutha fucking scheldue...why no holiday for chinese new year when u shitheads celebrate all sorts of lame occasions like halloween?totally retarded...guess chinese new year wouldn't bring in much revenue for u mutha fuckers son of bitches...grr...to think that i wouldn't be collecting any resources during this period sickens me further...screw it...year of cock...really is cocked up...

Monday, February 07, 2005

reflection

i have been thinking about this...my frens or maybe should i say acquitance ,since i don't really know them that well to be on the comfort zone, labels me as an anti social.there may be some truth in it since i miss out on the indodvc welcoming party and rarely go out wif them and hang out wif them.true...i don noe why but now i felt very awkward with so many ppl around,i always have a urge to run away and shut myself at home.turn off my cellphone sign off msn...in short imprison myself...could it be that i haf a mental disease...but on some days i feel super hyper and happy for no reasonor so...wierdo huh...i am more comfortable sitting in front of a computer screen and chat rather than meet the person physically and i don't wanna spend any money,juz wanna spend as little as possibel on living expenses but i don't even know what the hell i wanna the money for...juz wanna eat seep play computer and go school to get a shitty cert ...i haf no purpose...i am depressed but i am sick of hearing ppl asking wads the problem and cheer up blahblah...drinking does help to cheer me up though...oh great the dirt just keeps piling up...i am so screwed up...haha...

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Msn messenger fuck up

damn...i can't log on to msn messenger..damn it and its now my fucking pc's fault i think its the stupid modem or router fault...fuck man...damn sian...cannot chat...damn kanina...fuck...thats all juz wanna complain abt msn messenger...fuck klar...and wanna type fuck =)

Sunday, January 30, 2005

what an excellent complex i am living in...

i'm juz looking back at an incident a few days back when my fren's house was broke into,they lost a laptop,i pod,basketball shoes and some quarters...hahha...quarters also wanna take...well this apartment building is getting more break ins and indonesians are losing lap tops like crazy...and the strange thing is that they lock both the locks on the door which they claim will be safe however as my don give a fuck attitude i juz lock one lock on the door and my house is safe...hhahah...anyway the burglers don't seem to like desktops so my computer is pretty safe..hahah...hmm...i am a philosophy student but i don't even know some of the basic stuff the old hag of the lecturer was mumbling about plus her absolutely unreadable handwriting even taking notes proved to be a challenge...whenever i open the stupid textbook,i lost my feeling to study..damn it...on the bright side i'm pretty pleased wif my luck in getting a pretty good english lecturer who teaches like high school style..hahha...but the time of the classes sucks...8 am!! that is totally fucked up times...man mornings r for sleeping,afternoon r for classes,nite is for havin fun,after midnight is study and playtime...anyway i am turning moren more into nocturnal creature,now i really hate the sunlight...too glaring...fuck lar...don noe wads up but man i feel kind of pretty fucked up...losing interest in stuff pretty quickly...so getting bored easily...can wait till i'm 18...21 years old would be perfect...haiz...now i'm pretty hooked on techno or trance by groove coverage,i used to hate these type of music but now everything around me and in me is changing...fuck puberty..juz fuck man...